My heart feels like it could burst through my skin. I can feel the tingling sensations and energy of joy reverberating within. I am vitally alive and flourishing!! I’m not quite sure what it would look like if I attempted to reveal that, but my soul longs for this deep expression. The image that comes to mind is the scene in Beauty and the Beast where they dance with a magical confetti swirling around and the music sweeps them off their feet.

Looking back through the years and the deep layers within me, I felt so invisible, unknown, unwanted (unless I could serve and give to others), no sense of self, no self-care.

I poured out wholeheartedly. I loved deep. For all appearance’s sake, I was high functioning. No one knew how much I was suffering and alone. No one knew I was drowning or dying.

Today, though, I am celebrating a half century!!!!! I’m celebrating that for all the hard roads and hard work of healing, I am a witness to a miracle.